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Feelings.

09 May

Have you ever felt like you’re wandering in an endless, moonless, starless night, and suddenly, you see the first glimmer of dawn on the horizon?

Have you ever felt like your heart is a seed lying dormant, deep down in the cold, black earth, and suddenly, you feel that seed start to sprout and work its way up through the soil, trying to reach for the sun?

If you know those feelings, then you know how I’ve been feeling these past few days. Never in my life have I ever felt anything like this– like something is beginning instead of ending. Like I’m alive instead of dead. Like I want to reach out instead of shrink back. I feel like I can do anything instead of feeling like I can do nothing.

I don’t know why; I don’t know how. Is it God or something else? Is this what they call hope? At the moment, it’s beyond my ability to explain or even fully comprehend. The one thing I do know is that I don’t want to lose it, and that I’m going to cling to it as fiercely as I can, for as long as I can.

So what am I going to do now? I don’t know. I don’t know. Pursue some of my old dreams, maybe. Dreams that I thought were dead; dreams that I thought were no longer worth pursuing. I’m tired of being afraid of failure, and I’m tired of sitting on the sidelines. I’m tired of worrying about all the little things that can go wrong. For a long time– most of my life, really –I’ve felt these chains weighing on me, holding me down, and I grew accustomed to them. Even liked them, at times. But I don’t want them anymore.

I’m posting this more for myself than for anyone else, so I can look back on it when I start to falter, when doubt starts to set in again, when I trip and fall, when I feel defeated and powerless. So I can look back and know that I am indeed capable of feeling something other than black, soul-crushing depression and anxiety, that life doesn’t have to be an endless night. That I don’t have to be perfect all the time. That screwing up is part of being a human being, and that it isn’t the end. It is not the end.

Anyway, if you read all of this, thank you. If a little bit of…whatever this is happens to spread to any of you, then I’ll be glad.

 
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Why You Need To See The Avengers. Right Now.

07 May

So I just got back from seeing Marvel’s The Avengers.

Ho-lee shit. Excuse me while I reattach my face to my skull.

I’ll admit that when I first heard that they were going to put all of these big egos in one big movie, I was expecting a cinematic disaster of epic proportions– something as awful as the Transformers “films”. Something that was nothing more than Badasses on Parade. So initially, I was completely uninterested. Then I heard Joss Whedon was involved. I said to myself, “Well, it’ll at least be decent,” and decided to go see it. Boy, am I ever glad I did. It is Badasses on Parade, but it goes far, far beyond that.

Let me get it out of the way right now: I don’t know a damned thing about comic books. Luckily, familiarity with the original comics is not necessary. You can get by with just seeing the “prequel” films. I saw (and enjoyed) Iron Man and Thor, snored my way through The Incredible Hulk and skipped Captain America: The First Avenger. I did not have any trouble following what was going on in Avengers. So if you need some setup, Iron Man and Thor are the only ones that you really need to see. The other two are pretty much optional.

I didn’t give a shit about Hulk or Cap when I went into this movie, and I walked out actually liking both of them. I thought Edward Norton’s absence would leave a gaping hole. I thought wrong. Mark Ruffalo does a fine job. Also, Chris Evans is charming as hell, charming enough that I was totally sold on Cap about halfway through the film. In fact, I like him so much that I may just go back and watch Captain America after all.

Let’s talk more about actors. Specifically, let’s talk about Tom Hiddleston, who plays Loki, God of Mischief in this film and in Thor. He is one of my favorite things about this movie (and was most definitely my favorite thing about Thor). I was really worried when I learned that he was going to be the main villain. I was having visions of him growing a really big mustache so he could stand around and twirl it while laughing maniacally and tying Natalie Portman to some railroad tracks. Thankfully, that is not the case at all. Both the script and Hiddleston’s acting make Loki one of the best movie villains I have ever seen in my life, and I’ve seen a lot of movie villains. He’s so good that I was almost rooting for the son of a bitch! Okay, maybe it’s partly because I also find Tom Hiddleston strangely attractive. His devilish grin chills me to the bone and gets my heart racing all at the same time. (None of you need to inform me that I’m a weirdo; I’m fully aware of it.)

Now let’s talk about action. I am not exaggerating when I say that this is one of the best damn action movies I have ever seen. Speaking strictly about ass-kicking fight sequences and city-smashing spectacle, this is right up there with movies like The Matrix and the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Every hero (and villain) gets their due; they all get to show off their strong points. Therefore, they all shine. The action is well-choreographed and nicely shot– no Shaky-Cam to be found here (thank God!). Furthermore, we care about the action because we like and care about the people involved. Filmmakers take note: this is how you make an action film.

Another thing that’s great about this movie is the script. Not only did Joss Whedon direct, he also penned the screenplay. Anyone who’s familiar with his work knows he’s the master of witty dialogue and has excellent comedic timing, and he’s in top form here. In other words, this movie is funny. Really funny. There’s plenty of the razor-sharp wit we’ve come to expect from Tony Stark (played to perfection by Robert Downey Jr.), but there’s also physical comedy delivered by…well, I’ll try not to spoil it for you. You’ll know it when you see it.

Let’s talk some more about the script. The film clocks in at around 2 ½ hours, but you won’t feel it at all (unless you drank too much soda). There’s a place for everything and everything is in its place; there’s nothing extraneous and there’s nothing missing. It establishes the group dynamic and establishes the plot, and then everything pays off in a big, big way. The plot is nothing revolutionary, but it’s perfectly serviceable, and it’s really the characters who should be the main focus here in the first place.

Anyway, to sum it up: This movie delivers on just about every level. If you just want to munch some popcorn and watch some awesome action, then this movie will not disappoint you. (Seriously, I can’t say enough good things about the action sequences.) If you want a good laugh, forget the “comedy” films and just watch this. If you like hot guys in tight costumes, there are plenty of them here. If you want to see acting that ranges from good to excellent, here it is. If you want characters you can feel something for, well, it has that too. Sounds too good to be true, right? I’m probably among the most skeptical moviegoers in these United States, but this movie made a believer out of me.

I’ve been trying to find a fault in The Avengers, but there are none that present themselves upon first viewing. I guess I’ll just have to watch it a couple more times. Well, darn.

Sarcasm aside, if I had the 10 extra bucks, I’d go see it again right this minute.

 
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Getting tired of the internet? How is this possible?

15 Sep

Oh. Hi.

I don’t have much to say except that I haven’t been getting online much these days. I’m pretty much over Tumblr– too many fucking annoying hipster kids on there. What can I say? I’m a curmudgeon. I’ve been giving Twitter a go lately just to see if I like it, but I’m really not sure about it yet so don’t count on me still being there in six months (this is the link to it if you’re interested). I left Facebook because of bullshit drama and also because the service itself kind of sucks anyways. There’s an anime forum I’ve been a part of for nearly a decade, but I’m now considering leaving because the site is going in a direction I don’t like, and there are a lot of annoying 14-year-olds hanging around. I’ve really started to lose patience with internet douchebaggery, and I never had much patience with idiot kids to begin with. Even when I was an idiot kid, I couldn’t handle idiot kids.

But the main reason for me leaving all these sites is the unshakable feeling that nobody is listening. Even on this blog, I’ve always kind of felt like I was just talking to myself. Frankly, I’m pretty tired of feeling that way, and as a result I have grown rather tired of the internet in general, with very few exceptions (one of which being X-Entertainment).

Another reason I haven’t been paying much attention to this blog is simply because I’m just not feeling the nostalgia anymore. I think I pretty much wrote it all out of my system sometime back in 2009 or so. This makes me a little sad, but I guess all things must come to an end. I kinda wish I could come up with some way to go out with a bang, but…this just goes back to the whole “nobody is listening” thing. Even if I did end this blog on a high note, who would give a shit?

Will I start writing in here again? Will I leave this thing to rot? I really can’t say either way yet. If I get the itch to write about old crap again, I will. And if I don’t, I won’t. Let’s just leave it at that for the moment.

 
 

Potpourri

31 Mar

Hello. Is anyone still out there?

It’s spring now– a good time to clear the virtual dust and cobwebs off this here blog. I jumped off the blogging wagon while I was (unsuccessfully) attempting to participate in NaNoWriMo in November, and then forgot to jump back on. Oops.

Also, since February, Murphy’s Law has been in full effect in my life. That is to say, just about every damn thing that can go wrong has been going wrong. Obviously that shifts my focus from “I wanna blog about fun, retro crap!” to “Oh god, I need to fix all this shit.” Stupid life drama: bad for my blog; great for my Livejournal. If you catch my drift.

Anyway, I’m here to talk about some assorted stuff I’ve been enjoying in the months since I last updated. Some of it is retro, and some of it ain’t, but I enjoy it all the same, and figured I’d share.

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Sym-Bionic Titan is awesome.

25 Sep

I like cartoons. I like giant robots. I also like Genndy Tartakovsky, the man behind Dexter’s Lab, which is one of my favorite cartoons of all time. So when I found out he was making a giant robot cartoon, I flipped out. There was NO WAY this was going to be anything short of awesome.

Sym-Bionic Titan premiered on September 17, but since I don’t subscribe to cable, I didn’t get to see the first episode until today. I was not disappointed. In fact, I was impressed. The hallmarks of a Tartakovsky show are all here: humorous use of slow-motion, great action, clean lines, top-notch animation, lots of parody and homage, and giant robots. And that’s just the first episode.

There are also hints of future plot threads, which thrills me more than I can say. America could always use more shows with contiguous plots (animated or not).

Some people might consider the show to be “cliche” and not original. But I’m getting the impression that with this show, the “cliches” are kind of the point. As far as I’m concerned, it’s not originality that really matters– after all, there’s nothing new under the sun. What really makes or breaks a show is execution. Time will tell if this show will be able to execute its premise deftly, but it’s looking pretty great so far.

The first episode is streaming on Cartoon Network’s website. Check it out for yourself and let me know what you think!

Also, on a related note, Dexter’s Lab Season 1 is available for pre-order on Amazon and will be released October 12! Oh, how I’ve waited for this!

 
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